Middle Age

Hmmm, 1 a.m. and I'm wide awake. When did this start? The insomnia, the incessant running through problems (both minor and "major") in my head when I can't sleep? Or is it just peri-menopause. No hot flashes or night sweats, just popping awake in the wee hours only to toss and turn.

Here I am, a 51 year old female. I've had the career, a constant stepping up the ladder from the time I was 30. I enjoyed it too. It seemed so effortless, that climb. Like it was laid out in front of me and all I had to do was make each rung in succession. I do miss it in some ways. I loved what I did, it was a constant challenge. What I didn't like was the STRESS and lack of support from my boss. But goodness, did it give me a lot of backbone!

But now it's on to something else. I've been asking the universe for a couple of years now to point me in the right direction. I do not believe my purpose here on this earth is to just wither away - I know I still have a lot to contribute. And I think I know which way I'm headed.

I've started doing some volunteering. I tried it a number of years ago but didn't feel like anything I did fit me very well. I am now a mentor to a 6th grade boy. At first I wasn't sure if it was a good fit - but now I'm enjoying it quite a bit. He is a cute, precocious kid who needs some guidance. And isn't that what mentoring is all about?